I am so angry at me! So angry!
In the case of now. Exams are here, life is and will be coming to and end if I can’t get this book into my head and my eye-sockets just aren’t big enough to squeeze a 700 page A4 textbook through them.
SO angry!
why? why does it take until now? the end of another 13 week semester before I finally turn my arse around and realise that “oh god there is just no time” if I could go back to six weeks ago – I dont even remember what I did six weeks ago, and tell myself – there is NO TIME. you MUST be more productive! Time is of the essence. for a few months now, since I thought of the idea, I have been telling people often – “a lot can happen in a month, a lot can happen in a week, a lot can happen in a few hours, or even a few minutes”, and its true. a lot can happen in a matter of hours. you can fall in love in a week. you could make millions in the right day. so many seconds wasted, and here I am, reminding myself that I only have me to blame. when I wonder what I did last month, and I wonder why I have so much to do this week. I can turn around and at least I know where to point the finger.
as a great movie one suggested, “if you are looking for the guilty, you need only look so far as a mirror”
today I plan (and remember – plans are often bad ideas) to be more productive. actually get shit started in here and never look back.
angry is not the word. resolute should be the word. I need to take less sleep and more time to get things done. Today I become a busy person like yesterdays man would be in awe of.
until next time… you can sleep when you’re dead
Tags: busy, guilt, time, you can sleep when you're dead
